forget now!

lay in bed and close your eyes

play a song in your head and

remember:

the dilated pupils

the rush of heat

the concrete

damning everything else to indifference

and the unstoppable vigor of a 16-year old will return to you with such force that it could knock you back ten years and you will breathe again, with clear lungs, before the smog and the cigarettes and the pain of living so long without feeling anything so hard, harder than a diamond, faster than speed and as fragile as an ecosystem so

for the love of god,

go slow

and try to remember what it feels like to not know

you'll ever have to live without it