Stop Pulling

The Weather Vane Said to the Wind

I do not have a middle
like yours
I can't chase you like they can
and though they can't catch you either
they get to try

I create a picture for those of them
who care to remember that
measurable things aren't always
things they can change

I am stronger than you
most of the time

but when it matters
I can do nothing but point
to where you're going
unable to stop until
you get there
or until you
stop
pulling

Can't

This is where it stops.

Not pulling the second all-nighter of the week shouldn't put me behind. Fuck this. I love what I do, but I need half a day off every once in awhile.

I rarely feel like a person anymore. I haven't slept in 48 hours, and I'm a third of the way done, haven't missed a day of work, or slept past an alarm this week. When I do my job right, there's no fucking reason I should have to throw my health to the dogs like this.

I am going to sleep until my body is ready to wake up. I don't give a fuck what I miss tomorrow, whatever it is isn't worth this sort of stress.

Goodnight.

Last night, I ate a whole pizza by myself and watched TV on my computer. I must be single again.