Happy new year! In true form, I'm not going to talk about 2009. Fuck that year. Nothing bad really happened, but I didn't improve my situation as I'd hoped.
2010, however, is shaping up quite nicely.
I tripped the new year in with the Flaming Lips in Oklahoma City. It might be the most mind-blowing experience I've had to date. For really real.
I have vowed (and so far, not broken) to eat better and exercise more, in a habitual fashion which I won't have to think about in a few weeks.
I have quit smoking cigarettes. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN I DON'T KNOW! I think it had something to do with abhorring the smell of cigarettes when I was tripping in Oklahoma City. I'm somehow more alerted to how offensive the smell is to people who don't smoke. Advice: Don't take psychoactives if you have a chest cold, unless you want your life to change. I smelled everything separated. For instance, if there was a mixture of body odor, bad breath and booze in the air, I smelled what felt like "beads" of each, one at a time, unmixed. And when I lit a cigarette... ooh. My nose said, "No ma'am."
That first morning after zero cigarettes was absolutely priceless. So refreshing, to sleep without shit in your lungs wanting out.
Tonight will be the real test though: I work for the first time since quit day. Working in a restaurant is nightmarish to an ex-smoker. I feel strong now, and I'll bring my sunflower seeds to work with me, but I'm a little scared. I think I'll be alright.
What's next for this year? Learn, read, build, build. A project every day. Happy 2010.
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